ExoticGayFetish

A gay sadist with an abnormal fetish.

Since I was little, I've always enjoyed seeing men in pain and/or shame. When I saw a male character (a real person, not a cartoon character) being tortured by villains shamefully it made me really happy. When they moaned in a manly voice and struggled in shameful postures, I couldn't take my eyes off them – I wish that moment could last forever.

When I became an adult, I started to participate in BDSM parties to gain experience in the scene. Then, I found quite a number people in the BDSM community are into typical 'strong master/dominant, weak slave/submissive' roleplays.

I felt like an outcast; there are three main factors that are 'not my style'. Firstly, there is no 'shame' factor in the idea of a (physically: taller, lder, more muscular) stronger person overpowering a weaker person; secondly, it seems the stereotypical images of a master/dominant and a slave/submissive has limited the sexual roles in BDSM; slave/submissives are always involving in acts that make them 'less manly' (i.e. being fucked by a dildo, licking master/dominant's shoes, etc); finally, the acts in 'typical' gay BDSM could be interpreted completely opposite if used in femdom (which makes me realize I think like a dominatrix): in typical BDSM a dom would ask his slave to smell his armpits as a 'degrading' act, but in Japanese femdom, when girls (usually ganged up) and smell a mashocistic male's armpits, it gives the masochist a feeling of shame and unwillingness.

If the above two roles are reversed (i.e. a weaker sadist captures a stronger masochist, then tortures him with or w/o equipments), it is visually and psychologically much more 'hotter' (for me) as the stronger masochist has to bear the shame of being overpowered by someone weaker. Then, he can start moaning in a manly voice (expressing his destroyed manhood, which is 'dethroned', hence my name Dethroner) while the weaker sadist takes his time making him hurt and feel embarassed, extracing every last drop of 'manliness' out. The contrast in reversed roles also gives a feeling of 'revenge', which really makes the sadist go all the way without caring about the masochist, especailly in cock milking.

I have been on CB under the name mytreasurechest a few years ago. During that time, I challenged myself whether I could put my sadistic ideas together, thus exploring my fetishes by making gay BDSM videos (me as the weaker sadist). I have learnt about myself more through playing with different masochists.

The name Exotic Gay Fetish consists of three elements: 'exotic', as doing the exact same thing again and again in every video is meaningless, so it has to be different; 'gay', obviously the videos only involved males, and 'fetish', which was a way to remind me to broaden myself with different types of fetishes (usually painful ones on the masochists).

I soon fell into a gap of 'being different for the sake of being different'. What I meant is I was obsessed with 'interesting' fetishes that actually has nothing to do with my aesthetics. I almost forgot the core idea of the weaker overpowering the stronger and give them shame and pain.

After a few years of break, I'm now exploring my sexual aesthetics again; what is 'beauty' in sex? I hope to discuss in detail with masochists that share similar aesthetics, or those who understand what I'm talking about.